Sunday, November 08, 2009

get off your crutch and learn to stand on your own feet.
there's only so much help you can get.
and please, have some balls.
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It's back to BLACK ;}
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EA 2 am and she calls me 'cos I'm still awake
DB can you help me unravel my latest mistake
DF#A I don't love him, winter just wasn't my
EA season
one of my goals for this end term vacation (:
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haha, bye bye you two :D
SUCKERZZZZ xP
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I know He's calling me
but I can't go, I don't deserve too :/
I want to, but something's stopping me.
I doubt, but I believe,
and that'll pull me through for now
until the courage builds (:
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I miss the iPod more than my family ever will.
I hate getting attached to things,
especially non-living ones.
But they beat the living anytime.
Song of the Day::
Labels: amy winehouse, anna nalick, church, down, farewell, goth, handicap, iPod, jay sean, religion

xoxo, ME<3
Friday, November 06, 2009
hahahaa, whatever about that last post.
today is SO SO SO SO special (:
I had a huge student's subway meal
and an even larger dinner
okay, this subway is awesome, the lady gave 2 cookies and large cup.
for $5.30
in Marina Square it's $5.50
but the tuna was totally minimal.
ah well, it tasted AWESOME anyway ;D
best part is, I don't feel fat AT ALL!!!!
partly thanks to Erica's mirror.
LOVE YOUR HOUSE ERICA!!!!!!!!!!!
oh, && my sister's awesome for mentioning honey mustard.
my best friend's the best for encouraging me to try honey mustard!!!!
It's HEAVENLY (((((:
[hahahaha, that's me with like a quadruple chin]
&& Fang chose sweet onion today, it's FATFREE, so I took it too!!!!
SUBWAY IS BRILLIANT.
hopefully the feeling stays forever and ever
then I can eat and not want to go suicidal
eh Crystle and Kirti?
(:
Happy Holidays sweethearts!!!

ooh, btw, Calif did this on a Subway serviette some time ago (:Labels: holiday, subway

xoxo, ME<3
Thursday, November 05, 2009

so I've received comments about my blog.
Vick you're suicidal.
Vick stop saying you're fat.
hahahaha, from 2 people. Kirti and Crystle.
._____.
well, I've got something new to talk about.
SEX ;D
since from what my wonderful celebrities have taught me
and all of humanity
SEX SELLS.
hahahahaaha
shockerrrrrrr.
I went out with my boyfriend today.
(wonder what we did, eh? *waggles eyebrows*)
he looks like adam lambert with eyeliner on (:
but he has a sharper jaw and rock-hard abs
and he's 23, fresh out of military
how do you like that now,
friendssssss xD
Song of the Day::
you go and die if you believed me haha ;}Labels: adam lambert, fats, lil' wayne, sex, suicide

xoxo, ME<3
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
I'm not suicidal.
but what am I living for?
here's what I've got:
JANEL:
I love you I wrote you a note but it's not enough I'm gonna love you forever that's more like it eh :D
WANKERS:
Well it's been great getting to know you and hope that it'll be the same next year... Thanks for all the hyper moments during class and just before the exams to speak the monotony of the year... Thanks :D :D
JESSIKAH:
Ah love you lotsss vic! Yes I really enjoyed sitting with you :D and you were great in showcase
JU:
You're one cool shiz so hyper and so cute!
Pryke:
Hello I think you're really AWESOME and you are crazy fun. I can't imagine school without you :O so thanks for being insanely amazinggg!
Ru:
Hey VICK! You're really really cute too! O2 is really so much more lively when you're around to make hilarious comments :D so sad you couldn't come on the last days! We missed you! Hope to be in the same class next year :D
Wayne:
1 thing I can remember about you is the way you blow your nose. Haha
Theo:
I think you're one of the most pleasant person to be with. I'm glad we were able to work with each other. Take care and stay cheerful :D happy hols
Ryce:
Aww you're so sweet dear! I really enjoyed your company this year :D
YAAAYYY~ <3
Song of the Day::
Labels: thanks guys (:

xoxo, ME<3
Sunday, November 01, 2009

I missed an outing with StW (well, 5 of us haha) for this little tyke.
And oh, Fang's halloween too.
Dammit, parents,
how can you forget you have kids?!
nvm, it's a long story
and a whole stream of emotions.
if words could kill my parents would be dead.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JET SWEETHEART<3
D:
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my parents were 5 hours late.
ugh.
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
anyone got a rope.
hahahahaha 5 seconds later and I'm looking forward to holidays~ 8D
it's officially PMS :D
oo0oo
oohooh my brother's a big boy now (:
I took public transport with him today and he behaved himself (:
so proud of my liddy bwo-durh <3
hope he does his work tomorrrow.
ELEVEN IN TEN DAYS ON TEN-ELEVEN!!!!
teehee~
Song of the Day::
Labels: birthdays, november, parents, PMS, regina spektor

xoxo, ME<3
Saturday, October 31, 2009

"each door you open a decision you've made
but you'll find there's often a price to be paid"
have I typed that before?
Crap, it's almost 3, I'm still awake
and my dad just came home.
I'm in trouble D:
.
.
.
.
.
.
phew. he entered his room without checking into mine.
I bet he's freaking tired.
gah.
I hate seeing my dad tired, it puts me on a guilt trip everytime
like how he works his nuts off to support us
and I end up wasting the cash.
suicidal?
not that.
that's stupid.
why would I kill myself and have all the cash spent on me go to waste?
and I haven't even started living my life yet.
and I'm so lazy, I wouldn't bother to carry anything out.
I'm such a loser I can't even kill myself xD
anyways, I think it's PMS.
I've been feeling bleahs lately
like very bleahs.
add it to results and everything
aiyo.
but I just finished packing my table
it's half past 3
and I feel like I've got some control over my life now
yay, I don't feel so disgusted anymore.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FERG :D
great having you around (:'
jen enjoyed it.
Song of the Day::
I don't know this song, but it's the first one I saw so I clicked on it OO

xoxo, ME<3
Wednesday, October 28, 2009

on the radio-oh-oh
on the radio-oh-oh
I heart Regina Spektor!
I infected my own wound today. stupid me.
and I was about to make ferg a birthday present but he changed his display picture so too bad I can't make anything nice for him
but I'm gonna feel freaking bad about it
so now I don't know what to do
because I'm pretty sure what I had in mind is like the PERFECT present.
ahhhh cheesedogs.
well he and I, I think he sort of doesn't like me.
I don't really care much actually
but dang, it's his birthday, and he deserves something.
I'm a host.
my dad finished all of last night's dinner.
I finished all of today's fish.
I'm brilliant :D
my dad's.... weird xD
teehee~
I wished my godma happy birthday a day earlier.
what the hell, since I was 8 my mom has been telling me my godmother's birthday is on 28 Oct, and I've always wished her on 28 I'm sure
and today I wish her and she tells me I'm one day early
darn I've been cheated my whole childhood.
D:
what kind of goddaughter doesn't know her godmother's birthday? D:
sorry godma.
but my godfather's birthday is 8 nov.
I'm very sure.
if it's not on 8 november I'm shaving bald immediately.
I suddenly thought that Felicity is a nice name
but it sounds medical
or pretty chemical.
something ruby said. I forgot.
rantings, yeah.
Song of the Day::
love this song to the maxxxxxxx.
&& oh, I love Year 3 theatre to the maxxxxx too (:Labels: birthdays, boom box, felicity, food, regina spektor

xoxo, ME<3

I ran out of shampoo today.
thanks mom, glad to know you're taking really good care of our cleanliness.
._________.
So I dug around and found some hotel shampoo.
and used it, duh.
I smell like my dad now.
Weird.
*sniffs self*
I think my dad secretly uses hotel shampoo.
Or maybe his dang soap company gathers hotel shampoo
and pours all of 'em into a huge bottle
and sells it as normal shampoo
which my dad buys
and uses
thus having me smell JUST. LIKE. HIM.
peeyoo.
okay my dad doesn't stink
but it's weird smelling like your dad.
I rather have my own distinct smell
like johnson & johnson's or something.
Like my mom has this special soap
that reacts with her sweat to smell like green tea.
gross, but hey,
my mom smells like green tea.
:D

anyways my brother has smaller legs than I.
UNFAIR,
he's MALE, and SPORTY.
eats and does sports more than I.
I should have nicer legs
than annoying LOGS as support.
someone's out to drive me to suicide.
dangit.

ooh, Ministry of Food if HEAVENLY.
especially the zenzai stuff above 8P
okay I knew about MOF long ago
but only recently did my craving just kerpow.
pretty expensive though :/
so yeah.
I shouldn't be eating at all D:
Song of the Day::
this song just wouldn't get out of my head.
which is kinda weird, since the song in my head now is
Consequence of Sound (:
really amazing songs <3Labels: green tea, johnson and johnson's, ministry of food, regina spektor, shampoo, the streets

xoxo, ME<3
Sunday, October 25, 2009

God is good. Despite my badcrap results which proves that I have no intelligence, I am still blessed with sense to know that suicide is NOT WORTH IT.
My life could end now.
Or now.
Or now.
You'd never know, would you?
and it's not like I'm gonna kill myself after having invested all that dough in me.
I've got debts to clear.
And yes, God, I was being bloody sarcastic about being blessed.
TAKE THAT YOU HIGHER BEING.
You might be great but if you can't give me some greatness then it doesn't really do much does it.
Money not spent isn't really useful is it.
Sheesh.
I'm not the only dying, you just dragged everyone else down.
My life could end now.
Nawh I'm still here.
What are you living for?
Anyways, I can't believe I posted that about him.
I'm pretty sure I never saw him that way.
Ahhhhh, he's an idiot :D
Song of the Day::
"and all I need is you
hurry I'm falling I'm falling..."
My life could end now.Labels: god, nickelback, saving me, suicide

xoxo, ME<3
Saturday, October 24, 2009

i woke up this morning
feeling kinda blue
and I stumbled out of bed
and dragged my feet across the room
right outside my doorstep
was a rose and a note that said
"SOMEBODY LOVES YOU"
>.<>.<>.<>.<>.<>.<>.<>.<><
God don't drag them along, take me alone.
they are the best in the world
and the worst
but they're all I've got
the string is frayed.
are you gonna snip the last strand off?
I would've cried
but I didn't
I'm not giving in.
noob.
FRAGILE.
coz we are broken
Song of the Day::
coz he pissed the shit outta me
so this song is gonna piss the shit outta EVERYONE.Labels: angel in disguise, corinne may, miley cyrus, party in the usa

xoxo, ME<3
Thursday, October 22, 2009
chemistry?
CHEMISTRY?
they ask me why I HAD no chemistry with him?
Well, I'm sorry, but as professional as we get,
do remember the fact that he
DOESN'T
LIKE
ME.
Nope, not as a friend at all.
so well, screwed up but hey.
&& dammit,
they thought her character work was REAL.
they thought she REALLY meant it,
and they almost failed me for that.
AH WHAT THE HECK.
this sucks.
there goes my oneymay.
dribble.
but I don't blame anyone.
I mean, not their fault I have a stone heart
and they were trying to help me
and screwed me up along the way.
really.
I'm just terrible D:

she has really beautiful eyes
(it's makeup, but HECK,
even with makeup I look FUGLY.
FUGLIER.)
Song of the Day::
isn't it ironic, don't you think :/

xoxo, ME<3